Hi, Something happened to me recently, and I haven’t had the courage to share it with anyone, but it is haunting me and I have to get it off my chest.
I am 17. My mother lives overseas, and I live here in Jamaica with my dad and grandmother. He is a well-known person, and always entertains many friends.
They have social link-ups almost every week from as far as I can remember. Even though I am young, I have a full figure and as a result I’ve had to deal with attention from men since I was about 13 or 14.
I usually don’t allow it to get to me. I’m more focused on my studies. Men will be men. My father’s friends are no better than the men on the street. I face the same lustful glances and words when I am in their presence.
This one friend did something recently that has shattered my world. It was a Friday night a few weeks ago. They were having one of their usual social gatherings.
I’m usually locked in my room if I’m at home. I needed to grab something to eat, so I left my room to go into the kitchen.
On my way back to my room, my path was blocked by this older guy. He seemed a bit tipsy so I tried to go by him but he used his hand to block the doorway to my room.
He told me in vivid detail what he wanted to use his mouth to do to me, and I asked him to move out of my way or I would have to scream.
Before I properly processed what was happening, he pushed me against the door, and took out his erect penis.
He then started to please himself and in what seemed like a matter of seconds, this man sprayed his nasty ejaculate on my thigh.
My breath almost stopped. I have never felt so violated in my entire life. I couldn’t hold back the tears and I threw up right then and there. I haven’t said anything to anyone because I feel so embarrassed, and I know that if my dad finds out, he will kill him.
The guy had the audacity to come back to the house after the incident, and begged me not to say anything claiming that it was the alcohol but I feel so dirty inside now.
I think I’m going through depression now. What should I do?
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